Leah Pfeil

Leah Pfeil

Leah represented Miss Amazing Missouri Pre-Teen 2021

My Executive Functioning Disorder makes me unable to "think for myself" and do things like other people. For example, I spent an hour sitting at the computer yesterday, trying to "think" about what to write for this question. It's really hard for me to "think" by myself. If I am told to do something, I know that I have to do it, but I can't "think or function" to do it. Lots of times I forget what I am supposed to do, even if it is right in front of me or minutes from being asked. Therefore, I need someone to remind me all the time. Even after a reminder, I usually don't remember. It's hard because I also have Reactive Attachment Disorder. Due to that, I am always mad at my mom because she is the one who prompts me to "think and function". At school, I struggle, but the teachers don't know. I am academically and musically gifted, so the teachers assume that I am fine. Yet, I have to watch everyone else to see what they are doing, then I will do what they do. It is a very hard situation that I am in. I don't look like I have any problems, yet I constantly need prompts to get through a day. I also have five types of Synesthesia, which makes it hard to focus in school due to the constant colors that are everywhere. But when I am playing the piano, violin or singing, the colors help me detect if I play a wrong note, because the wrong note's color clashes with the color scheme. When this happens I can adjust immediately and make the song in perfect pitch. Having this gift makes music my passion!